We started our new Worship Series thise week. Sunday we talked about Total Surrender to God. How are you learning to Surrender to the LORD in your life?
This past year or so I've experienced something I never have before- being completely broken for God. A spot of total abandonment, surrender to the will of God. I have been fighting back and forth with God for the past two years. Clinging to promises I thought I was entitled to and trying to live my life according to my own rules. I was trying to force the promises of God... as if I have any control or God should listen to me! But I was somewhat angry with God, completely selfish in my behavior and attitude… questioning God every step of the way and never fully trusting Him or His will for my life. Disillusionment in my circumstances made me question the love of God, I felt like God had hurt me and my response was anger and detachment. In the last few months God has broken me. I have learned obedience above promises… to look outwards and think of others above myself. Of course these are things I have to do daily, continually remind myself, and surrender my selfishness to Him. I have to let go of myself... things that I have put up as idols before God… I have to rethink my priorities. My priority should be to simply walk in the grace of God, to try and discern his voice as I try to follow His will. Circumstances and life situations aren't necessarily clearer, and my emotions (of course) are still all over the place but I feel that closeness with God…a craving to know him better... an excitement to seek Him out.
This past year or so I've experienced something I never have before- being completely broken for God. A spot of total abandonment, surrender to the will of God. I have been fighting back and forth with God for the past two years. Clinging to promises I thought I was entitled to and trying to live my life according to my own rules. I was trying to force the promises of God... as if I have any control or God should listen to me! But I was somewhat angry with God, completely selfish in my behavior and attitude… questioning God every step of the way and never fully trusting Him or His will for my life. Disillusionment in my circumstances made me question the love of God, I felt like God had hurt me and my response was anger and detachment. In the last few months God has broken me. I have learned obedience above promises… to look outwards and think of others above myself. Of course these are things I have to do daily, continually remind myself, and surrender my selfishness to Him. I have to let go of myself... things that I have put up as idols before God… I have to rethink my priorities. My priority should be to simply walk in the grace of God, to try and discern his voice as I try to follow His will. Circumstances and life situations aren't necessarily clearer, and my emotions (of course) are still all over the place but I feel that closeness with God…a craving to know him better... an excitement to seek Him out.
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